Insomnia,
July 9, 2008
You’ve taken over a part of my mind, and my body, that I once had extreme control over. Giving into your demands and lures proves to myself how weak of a person I really am.
I understand maybe it’s on me to work on fixing things, making them right… Not thinking about them. Not thinking about him.
We had another argument today.
I want to feel what it is like to fall asleep. I want to wake up in the morning refreshed, renewed. I hate the come-down/hungover feeling that hits me the moment I wake up in that stuffy obnoxiously messy and crowded room.
You know, I used to drink calming teas and do 15 min of yoga before sleeping…
Maybe I’ll start doing that again.
Reluctantly,
Kayla
